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Updated January 23, 2015

"If a man does not keep pace with his companions,

perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.

Let him step to the music which he hears,

however measured and far away."

- Henry David Thoreau

  A CLEARER VISION *

By Harry Dudley; Calgary, Alberta, Canada

I feel I am beginning to achieve clarity about my confusion. 

So now I must try harder to relax.

And I will be myself as soon as someone tells me who l am.

And my way of living my life is to not live my life.

And I will control your criticizing me by giving you all my power.

And I will meet my profound intimacy needs by choosing a partner who will run away.

And I find it very important to focus on my flaws and faults, in order to achieve my goal of being perfect.

And I have a theory that there is a conspiracy to deprive me of my conspiracy theories

And my mistakes would be more forgivable If I wasn’t already a mistake

And I am becoming increasingly arrogant about how humble I am.

And I don't mind being spontaneous as long as I don't lose control.

And to have no identity has become my identity.

And if I develop an identity I will not know  who I am.

And my ongoing search for truth requires that I blame someone.

And I will be authentic as soon as I know it is safe.

And l am so adjusted to feeling bad that when I feel good, I must feel very bad in order to destroy feeling good.

And since I know that joy is followed by suffering, I’ll control my suffering by avoiding joy.

And if you really love me, you know what I need; so my asking for my needs means You don’t love me.

And how dare you call me defensive?

And the only way I know that I am alive is to be so depressed that I want to die.

And I will be a better person with inherent worth and value as soon as I prove myself.

And since I know I am invisible I must ignore that you don’t ignore me.

And l only criticize you out of my sincere need for honesty.

And I welcome change in my life as long as it doesn’t affect my routine.

And now that I have resolved my confusion and achieved clarity of vision, I will strive for simplicity in my life - imitating the Buddha and Christ conscious- ness...

By allowing the unfolding universe to provide me with all my material needs and wants - as soon as I’m wealthy.

This is a marvelous example of someone in true recovery from psyychological wounds affectionately poking fun at most of the very
 real symptoms we work to heal. - PKG 

  FOOTPRINTS

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed s/he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonged to him, and the other to the Lord.

   When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footsteps in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life, there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest, saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him, and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I've noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most, you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child - I love you and I would never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."

- Mary Stevenson

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